I am so incredibly blessed.
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and then my phone rang, I got up to answer it, talked to Nikki for about an hour, got off, finished a part of a project and completely forgot I was writing a blog post.
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and now I'm too tired to finish.
Let's just take a quick summary of what otherwise would have been a long post about how great the Lord is, how amazing Justin is, and how much I love them.
- it is breath taking to watch the Lord orchestrate things in your life
- Justin, is by far (I think), the best fiance in the entire world
- I am blessed and excited to be his wife
- I love ribbon and I'm making invitations this week
smile
- the end -
(69 days)
I am sitting at work, snuggling a wee little two week old one. He is SO precious. All cute, warm and baby soap smelling, his little bottom lip stuck out. Seriously....I'm starting to get ideas!
:)
73 days left til I marry the most amazing man I've ever met.
Some days it feels like I won't have enough time to get everything done when at others it feels just WAAAY too long to wait to live closer than 1 hour to Justin.
I think that's the only thing that stinks about being engaged. It doesn't magically mean that I get to see Justin any more than I did before. In fact, in some cases, it means I get to see him less.
:( <---- my pouty face.
But really, it's all worth it and its all ok. In 73 days I won't have to say goodbye at the end of the night. That will be a beautiful thing.
Hands down, it's www.theknot.com
It's not because I'm getting married, it's a bridal site, it's filled with oodles of pictures of dresses, cakes, invitations, flowers, etc. Or because I'm so overwhelmed that it's the only thing keeping me sane. (hehe. that's so far from the truth. I am PEACEFUL! And it is filled with oodles of photos. I'm pretty much positive that's a bad thing.)
It's because every time I go to the site it says something to this effect:
"Welcome back Justin and Kristen! Only 82 more days to go!"
YES! I LOVE the countdown. And I must admit I visit the site several times a day just to see that number. (smile)
Only 82 more days to go until we are Mr. and Mrs. Good! (!!!)
I love the sound of that and I can't wait.
P.S. - I am SO glad that we are only having a 96 day engagement. :)
Spreadsheets make some people sweat, cause others to cry and some to simply run away screaming.
Me?
They make me really really happy. Nothing (almost) makes me so happy as to have all my info arranged into cute little grids and boxes. Big lists with bolded titles and indented subtitles make me smile.
Really.
Well, Justin makes me smile more, but you get the idea.
Justin and I are in wedding planning mode now. We have a spread sheet entitle "Guest List". The other one is entitled "Wedding Book" and it has like 8+ tabs on the bottom. Everything from Vision to Ceremony to Reception to Budget to Rehearsal to Legal to you get the picture. All those tabs are glorious and they all have lists on them with titles, subtitles, bolded and italicized things. Sigh. I love it. I feel calm when I look at the spreadsheet.
Actually, we're not totally all about the wedding right now. I like to think that we have a nice balance of things. We have hung out a few times since he asked me to marry him. (stop and smile right here, that's GREAT news!) Anyway, we've not had really a lot of alone time since then even when we're hanging out, so we've actually done very little (in the grand scheme of things) talking about the wedding. We've most definitely wasted time staring at each other, laughing, taking walks, hanging out with family, texting each other silly messages and in Justin's case, leaving cute little "I love you" notes just about everywhere for me to find.
It's been great. I LOVE being engaged! We keep looking at each other and going "We're getting married!!" and giggling. (Well, I've been giggling. Justin has not. He smiles, really big and manly. hehe.) It's amazing and so much fun. What we have been able to talk about so far has been really great. We are having tons of fun planning the big day. We can't stop smiling when we talk about it and we say "I love you" a lot while doing it. I love planning to spend the rest of my life with my best friend.
Anyway, the date is September 6, 2009. The day is starting to take shape and details will be out soon. Until then, we are spending time enjoying this season, drawing closer to the Lord and hanging out! Whoo-hoo!
Jesus is so faithful. Above and beyond what any of us deserve. Amazing. He is holy and we love Him. He's just the best. :)
I am in the process of reading "Dating Delilah" by Judah Smith with our Student Leaders at church. So far, it's been a really great book. Very straightforward, practical and encouraging! It's so amazing to read a book on purity where you walk away feeling convicted not condemned, and encouraged to strive for more of Jesus in your life. I like it.
So, I'm on chapter 3. I absolutely LOVE this one point and just had to share with you all.
He states that we have to realize that purity is a process, not a point or a magical-all-at-once-transformation. It's a decision we have to make daily. "Why? Because purity is not a line we cross, it's a direction we take."
Amen!
It's so easy, when pursuing purity in your life, to mess up and then just want to give up. Because you've prayed again and again, given it over to the Lord again and again, and yet STILL you mess up. It drives you crazy, makes you feel guilty and tells you that you're never going to be "free" of this sin. It defeats you.
What we fail to realize is that we don't become like Jesus all at once.
We don't become sin-free all at once.
It's a process.
So, instead of crying defeat when you mess up, you go to Jesus, admit your disobedience and rejoice that He has grace for you and forgives you. "When you understand the work of God however, you will recognize that stuff coming up is a natural part of the process...you are being given an opportunity to decrease so that God can increase in you."
"He must increase, but I must decrease" -John 3:30
I just think that it's awesome.
Hallelujah that life with Jesus is a journey. An exciting adventurous journey where He's constantly showing you new things, loving you, forgiving you and making you more like Him. Amen.
